Reaching a certain age makes you realize that you only have a certain amount to time left on this earth. This makes me seriously ask the question "am I where I want to be right now and if not should I try to achieve the dreams I made as a young adult, or create new directions for myself?"
The desires of my youth were a lot like anyone else's. Never struggle financially, travel anywhere I wish, about mariage, to stay youthful and slim, to have a life nothing like the adults around me. Now into my thirties I am observing my life is nothing like what I imagined. I know this is common and do not feel depressed that I did not achieve my youth inspired misguided mission. I needed those ideal to get me where I went. Now though that my youth is behind me, I realize that I am actually an adult now. My mind is clearer, my heart is tied to someone, and my feet are a whole lot more on the ground. I think that the funniest part about my original dream where that I still want to do them to some degree, only in ten years from now. I see now that living my early and mid twenties the way I did gave me an urgent feeling of responsibility now. I need to play catch up in a big way! In a perfect world I would have been able to finish school and would have paid off my student loans by now. I would have traveled on my holidays instead of living in another country. I would have moved to city that I had a job offer instead of starting my life back in Canada in the most expensive and socially difficult place in the country. But as my parents frequently told me "You never choose the easy way". haha And it is still true today. I have never chosen easy paths to follow, but that is why I am able to face more than the average person my age.
The next stage of my life will not be quite as exciting as years prior, however at this stage that sounds like the biggest undertaking I have ever challenged myself with.
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